No more tube!

We have learned not to count our chickens before they're hatched so... I waited a week to let everyone know that Fin is off his ventilator and doing great!  He is now on high flow oxygen through a nasal canula but we are almost off of that now too.  He is having to work a bit at his breathing due to the pressure that is put on his lungs from his organs below, but he is stronger everyday and everyone is very confident that he will not have to be re-intubated.  Here he is!

He is a very happy boy and Rick's and my stress level has gone down a notch!  This was a HUGE step.  In addition to this change, he is just about off the narcotics... we had a rough couple of days of withdrawals but our incredibly strong boy made it through with the help of a medication change, some very patient nurses and mommy and daddy of course.  

Now, on to the big challenge - the feeding.  Two days after his breathing tube was removed, we started on breast milk through a bottle and he did great!  It was as if he'd been doing it from the beginning.  I was completely amazed!  We had a small set back the next day when he stopped wanting to swallow, but we figured out his throat and nasal passages were swollen and this was causing him some obvious discomfort. It took a day to get him back on track and it's slow going but we are working at it.  Mommy and Fin are practicing our breast feeding and he is doing well, but he still has to take most of his milk through the tube in his nose.  It's so important for him to gain weight so the tube feeding is necessary for now.  The goal is to get him off the feeding tube and we have every confidence that this will happen soon.  Patience and dedication!!

We are in the home stretch (fingers crossed) and we cannot wait to bring him home.  On the bright side, we can hold him whenever we want!  He is developing such a personality.... he smiled for the first time just the other day and I just about fell over.  I called the nurse in and she came running thinking something was wrong and I just stood there and cried and said, "he smiled at me!"  Fin smiling = mom's heart melting.  

Thanks as always to family and friends for all of your loving support!  We couldn't get through this without you... the positive energy and all the love and well wishes has made such a huge difference to our family and we love you all so much!  

Love, xoxoxo Finley, Daria & Rick

Holding Finley for the first time!

Hi again everyone!  Fin and I had a huge surprise this morning... when I walked into the NICU our wonderful nurse told me it was time to hold Finley!!  He is still intubated and I was told how strict the neo-natolgists are about holding intubated babies so I asked her what had changed and she said simply, "it's time and you both need it."  The doctors were convinced we could handle it and so after some tearful hugs, they placed him against my chest, skin to skin and we sat and rocked for 2 1/2 hours!  Rick came to the hospital as soon as he found out what was going on and the three of us enjoyed some wonderful time together.  What a difference a day makes!  

5 weeks old!

Hello again family and friends of Finley!

We hope all is well with everyone and that you're enjoying the holiday weekend.  Here is yet another update on our brave boy, Finley... he is doing great!  We are still a little way off from coming home, but he is making good, steady progress.  A few things have changed, number one being his eating or "feeds" as they are called in the NICU.  Without going into too much detail, Fin's tummy loves breast milk!  He has had no problem digesting and eliminating his milk and we are now at full feeds, no more TPN (IV nutrition).  He had no setbacks with his feeds which is a HUGE deal for him.  The fact that only 5 weeks ago, a good portion of his organs were on the outside of his body and now, not only are they inside but are functioning correctly, is beyond amazing and a credit to our sweet boy and his wonderful surgeon.  

They will continue to up his feeds accordingly and the next step is to either fortify them for additional calories or to compress them which means that instead of a continuous feed like he is on now, he would receive larger portions at regular intervals.  He is gaining weight slowly and will be able to start attempting bottle and breast feeding very soon which leads me to the next topic..... 

It's the Bane Of Our Existence, our Arch Enemy.... The Ventilator.  I'm kidding, it's really not, however, we just want it out of him!  Now that he is so much more active and alert, he just HATES it and lets us all know it.  The constant coughing and suctioning and worrying about the condensation in the tube going into his lungs.... it will be a very happy day when it's gone.  They are slowly weaning him off of it as his lungs will tolerate it.  The problem is that his newly placed organs are still causing pressure on his lungs and so he is not fully able to take deep enough breaths on his own.  Again, without going into too much detail, suffice it to say that getting him off his vent is the number one goal right now and this week they are going to start to push him a little.  We have an ultrasound Tuesday to take a look at his diaphragm and we will know more at that point.  

The weaning of the fentanyl (pain medication) is going well.  We don't think he's in much pain anymore, it's a matter of dealing with the withdrawal symptoms.  It has gone much better than we had thought, he has had a few bad days but overall, not too horrible.  He is just about weaned off... to give you an idea, his highest dose was 7 micrograms and he is now at 1.  Almost there! Once he is completely off the drip, they will most likely give him spot doses periodically and then we are done.  

His belly wound is looking great, he still has the wound vac on and will for possibly several more weeks.  I have been pushing to get more info on this but it's difficult to get the surgeons to commit to anything concrete.  Our understanding is that the wound will "granulate" meaning it will close on it's own but we're not sure how long this will take.  The good news is that this process has begun and there is no infection.  

Fin is so alert and love lots of stimulation!  He knows our faces and voices, he loves looking at his mobile and his colorful rattles and toys and has started to reach for things.  He has a bed full of toys and things to look at and mommy and daddy talk and sing to him as much as possible.  He sucks on his pacifier really well, even with the tube in his mouth, which is a good sign that he will take to breast feeding.  The nurses continue to dote on him... he is a favorite around the NICU.  One doctor calls him the Famous Finley.  Am I bragging?  haha.  We can't wait to see his precious face once that tape comes off.... we are hoping for next week sometime, fingers crossed.  At that point, we should be able to finally hold him!!

Thanks for reading and thanks as always for all of your kind words and support, we can feel the love for our sweetest heart, Finley!  

More news soon, much love to all!

xoxoxox Finley, Daria & Rick

3 weeks old!

Hello everyone!

Our Finley is 3 weeks old now and he has made some amazing progress!  I had mentioned previously that he had a VSD (moderate size hole in his heart) but what I didn't mention was that his PDA was open.  The PDA is an artery near the outside of the heart that is open while in utero but should close following birth.  Fin's had not closed and it was affecting the efficiency of his heart and lungs.  The plan was to go in today and surgically close the PDA and later asses the VSD.  But, low and behold, following an echocardiogram yesterday it was discovered that his PDA was closed and the VSD is now miniscule.  Our little man took care of it all by himself!  Rick and I are so happy to have avoided yet another trip to the operating room and we're sure Fin is too!

With this change in his heart, the doctors are now able to begin to wean him down on his ventilator which is very positive.  We are also now weaning him down on his pain medication and so far, he has tolerated it very well, no obvious negative effects.  The surgery team is extremely pleased with his belly wound.... there is no infection, swelling is going down and it is healing nicely.  They have placed a wound vac over the wound which basically speeds the healing process and skin growth by inviting cytokenes and other beneficial cells to the site in order to encourage healing. Our goal over the next 2-3 weeks is to have him off the ventilator, off the pain meds and the wound vac removed.  We know better than to count on anything until it happens but we are hoping for this time frame.  At that point, we should be able to finally hold him!

Some of the best news yet.... today our beautiful boy got his first taste of breast milk!!  Well, he didn't get to actually taste it but his stomach did!  As of this morning, he began receiving breast milk through a tube in his mouth down to his tummy.  It's a continuous feed that amounts to 1 cc an hour.  Not much, but they have to get his stomach primed to be sure he can tolerate it.  So far so good!  He did great all day, even passed gas several times which was music to my ears because it means things are moving along down there.  They will slowly increase the amount as he can handle it.   Mom has plenty of milk!  :)

Overall, our little FIn is doing really well.  Aside from a little scare when some fluid from his tube dumped into his lungs and he turned purple (I could live the rest of my life and never see THAT again thanks very much), he is doing well and taking some very positive steps forward.  It's a slow process but Rick and I continue to take it day to day.... he continues to amaze us with his strength and his ability to heal.  We are so ridiculously in love with our boy and we wish that we could be in the NICU every minute.... it's so hard to be away from him even for a few hours but we remind ourselves that he's in very good hands and he'll be home once he's ready.

Thanks everyone for all your love and support and kindness.  It means everything to us!  More updates soon... love to everyone!  

xoxoxoxo Daria, Rick and Finley

Surgery update

Hi everyone!  

Fin came through his surgery like a champ... Rick calls him the Jedi Knight.  He continues to reassure us everyday that he is a brave boy!  His surgeon worked miracles on his little belly.  They were not able to achieve full closure, but almost.  Basically, what they did was use a biologic mesh to cover the small opening.  There is a layer of it below his muscle, then above it, then another layer on top of the skin.  It's only a very small opening and no more silo bag!  Rick and I were amazed.  As it stands now, he will most likely not require another surgery as long as there is not too much swelling that would cause them to have to go in and make more room.  

There are a many things that need to be monitored closely over the next several days.  His fluids and respiratory function being very important to watch.  His ventilator settings are the same post op as they were pre op and his surgeon was pleased with the way his lungs have functioned so far.  He is still on the paralytic in order to continue to keep him completely still while his organs adjust and his abdomen continues to stretch.  His little belly is pretty tight and rounded, but again, we are truly amazed at what the surgeon was able to accomplish.  

His pain level is being monitored closely by watching his vital signs and he is on a fairly heavy dose of fentanyl.  Unfortunately, one of the negatives is that he will more than likely go through withdrawal when they wean him off the pain medication.  He will hopefully be off the paralytic in the next 48-72 hours.  The ventilator will hopefully come off in the next week or two.  Once this is achieved, the next big hurdle will be to begin feeding him, but we cross each bridge as it comes.  We can't wait to hold him, but not sure when that will be yet.  Until then, we touch and talk and give him our best light, energy, confidence and love!

Overall, he looks great and all the nurses kept saying how good he looks!  He amazes us everyday... he is a little piece of magic!  (thanks Elaine!)  More news and pictures soon. Thanks again to all of you, our loved ones, who give us so much strength.  

Much love,  Daria & Rick xoxoxo

Finley update week 2

Hi family and friends of Finley!  

Here's the latest... Fin will be having his second surgery tomorrow.  This will be considered his "closure" surgery even though he will require probably one more.  First let me say what an amazing brave boy we have here!  He had two reductions yesterday and one this morning with the result being that almost ALL of his omphalocele is back inside his little body.   This is a good thing, however, all the reducing has required the surgeons to put him on a paralytic which basically paralyzes his whole body.  It's necessary in order to keep him completely relaxed so that his muscles and skin can stretch to better accommodate his newly placed organs.  It's a tight squeeze!  Good for his body but not so good for Mom and Dad!  It is unbelievably difficult to watch him not be able to move or even open his eyes.  Thankfully, our nurses are so attentive and they are able to determine if he is in pain by watching his vitals closely and they are able to give him extra pain medication if he appears to be in distress.  This happened a couple of times today and with a little soothing from Mom and an extra bump of fentanyl, his heart rate and blood pressure calm down.

A few people have asked why the surgery is being done so quickly and there are a few reasons.  Number one, the organs are susceptible to swelling due to the fact that they are somewhat exposed because of the ruptured sac.  Swelling would obviously be bad because it would make it more difficult to move the organs inside.  Number two, they want to get him off the ventilator as soon as possible and they can't remove it until they achieve closure.  Infection is also an issue so the sooner they can get everything moved in and closed the better.  More than likely, they won't be able to close it completely because his muscle is not going to be able to stretch far enough but they will be using a grafting technique to get it as closed as possible.  Rick and I feel very good about our surgeons and we feel that they are making the very best decisions for our little man!

One other update, his VSD (hole in heart) is now considered small to moderate and there is no flow in or out of it which is a very good thing!  Nothing is to be done about it yet, they are going to just keep monitoring it and hopefully they won't have to do anything about it!

Fin is so feisty and has so much courage... everybody hold a good thought for him tomorrow afternoon!  Thanks again to everyone for all your loving support.  We feel like everyone's arms are wrapped around us!  

Love to everyone!!  xoxoxoxo Daria & Rick

Welcome to the world Finley!

Hello friends, family and members of Team Finley!  I have spoken to many of you over the past week, but I wanted to email out an update on Fin's condition to get everyone caught up to date.  Bear with me if you have already heard most of this.  

Finley was born on August 1st at 3:05 PM, 5 lbs / 7 oz / 18 in long.  Mommy was admitted to the hospital a week prior for preeclampsia so we had the chance to make ourselves right at home before Fin made his appearance.  He was delivered via c-section at 37 weeks 5 days.  Upon delivery, a couple of things happened.  First, the sac surrounding his omphalocele ruptured.  Second, he wasn't breathing, but the docs were able to get him going in under a minute and a ventilator was placed.  Due to the rupture, surgery was the only option and it needed to happen quickly.  Thankfully, his lungs were looking good so he went into surgery within 5 hours of birth.  

He was in surgery for 3 hours and made it through with no complications.  Great start!  A silo bag was placed around the omphalocele.  Basically, this bag enables the docs to slowly push the organs back into the abdomen.  There are MANY details surrounding his daily care but I'll just give the basics as it stands today.

So far, he had had 4 "reductions".  This is when the docs move a bit of his organs into his abdomen.  This is very touchy as his abdomen is not quite big enough to accommodate his very large omphalocele.  Simply put, the more they push in, the more pressure is put on his lungs and so his ventilator settings are adjusted in order to help him breathe.  He is able to breathe on his own, but the ventilator is necessary in order to help him along.  At this point, the surgeons feel strongly that they need to move fairly quickly over the next week to get the organs into the abdomen and perform a closure surgery.  As of today, it looks like they will probably not be able to get it all the way in within that time frame and so they will do a sort of "patch" closure where they use some type of mesh to cover it.  This just means that he will require an additional surgery at a later date.  Amazingly, they have moved all of his liver back in and  it's just some bowel that remains outside.  It's about the size of half of an orange sitting on his belly.  HIs little abdomen is pretty tight, but he is tolerating the reductions well.  He does this really cute thing where he stretches and kicks his legs straight out and throws his arms back behind his head like he is lounging on a beach!  The docs say this is him stretching his belly out to make room and it is so cute to watch!

Some other details:

• He is pretty heavily sedated for obvious reasons, but he is alert and opens his eyes and looks around regularly.
• He has a moderate size VSD (a hole in his heart between the two ventricles), but it's not causing too much of a problem at this point.
• We are not able to hold him as he has to be kept on his back and very still.  They have taught us a method of "holding" using our hands on his head and feet which he really likes.  He knows we are there and responds to our voices.

There is so much more to tell, but these are the main points.  Rick and I are taking everything day to day as new things come up and adjustments are made.  The team at UCLA is AMAZING and Rick and I feel very confident about the care he is receiving.  Finley still has a ways to go, but his first week has been good overall.  He is already charming the nurses and we are so in love with our baby boy it is beyond our comprehension!  

I will send out regular updates on his condition and I apologize in advance if I don't get back to people right away.  I am at the hospital all day and Rick takes over after work in the evening....everyone has been so loving and kind and so very supportive of our little man and we appreciate it more than words can say.  Finley's journey has begun!  More news soon.

Love to everyone!!! 

xoxoxoxo Daria & Rick